I’ve been going pretty hard in the gym these past few weeks. It’s getting warm outside, and I’d like to put some real size on my chest, shoulders, and arms by September. When I get home, I just want to veg out and chill on the internet. Watch Youtube videos. Read my favourite forums. Slowly but surely, time goes by. Every minute, every click, I started drifting back into the internet-dweller lifestyle. Good thing I have this NoSurf blog to keep me publicly accountable.
I have a bunch of homework to do and money to make. Why would I give my precious life energy to that prick Al Gore? And is it a big deal if watch porn just like…once?
To be honest, home internet sucked me back in.
That’s why I decided to open my wallet and try Mobicip and Qustodio. To build a blockade against all the porn out there on the internet. I also hilariously changed my search engine to Bing, as their filtering is much stronger.
And of course, I still have my KSafe. I’m gearing up for war.
I like taking willpower out of the equation, because when I’m tired my brain shuts down and I just veg on the internet. I usually get up at 5:30am and don’t stop running around until 10pm when I pass out. I’m still up around 6am on weekends if not 5:30am. It’s a habit I started religiously a few years ago when I found BoldAndDetermined.com and read 30 Days of Discipline for the first time.
I started reading 30 Days of Discipline again today, well I read the whole thing, it’s only 23 pages. If you fine folks of the internet haven’t read it, the first time you try it is pretty decent. It blew my mind when I was 21 years old.
When I was 21, in the Spring of 2012, I was broke and depressed. Eleven grand of student debt constantly gnawing at the back of my brain. I was miserable. I had just gotten dumped (third girl in a row to get bored of me and dump me). I had no prospects for making a real income. I drank by myself basically every night, I lived at my mom’s house. I went to the gym every day and lifted heavy, but it didn’t seem to put any size on me. I masturbated daily to internet porn. I identified as pagan and Libertarian. I spent probably 20+ hours a week on internet forums. I’m surprised I didn’t have a goddamn fedora. I was the definition of internet-dweller.
After rejecting the “Internet-dweller” lifestyle, I’ve put in three years of work. Unsurprisingly, my life is way different. I’m actually pretty happy with my life and what I’m building.
Since I’ve been getting sucked back into the internet-dweller lifestyle lately, I’m gonna stomp it out. I’m going offline for 7 days. I’m going to use the Freedom(legacy) app for my phone, and lock it right down. No internet for 7 days.
I encourage anyone whose life is being affected by internet addiction to take this 7 day break with me, and see how far you can make it. You might surprise yourself with how calm and focused you become. And how much time reappears in your schedule to do other things. Somehow, I always forget the calmness NoSurf gives me. Until it kicks in halfway through the first day. That’s one of my favourite feels.
There were two big reasons I started this blog.
Reason #1: To hold myself publically accountable for my internet addiction.
Reason #2: To give other young people the social permission to live the NoSurf/NoFap lifestyle, however they see fit.
I’m tired of getting sucked into Youtube when I just want to relax on the couch. This week, I think I’ll be relaxing on the couch with Gorilla mindset instead.
Money never sleeps and neither does the internet,